Hello everyone. I have struggled for practically my entire life with my weight. I have struggled with periods of eating disorder behavior, as well as binge eating. Its taken me a long time to realize that I think I use my weight as a form of protection- I always can then say that if I am fat and someone rejects me that "its the fact I am fat they dont like me" not that it ever could be "me" who is getting rejected, but rather the fat. Now that I have realized that, I dont want to live like that. I have spent far too much of my life wasted on holding myself back. My weight holds me back from so much, from how much I let others in and know me, to robbing me of fun such as swimming in the summer. And the truth is, I know im not THAT huge, but my mind makes me feel sometimes So much fatter than I am. And I am sick of that way of life. I want to believe I deserve everything, deserve to respect, love and treat myself so much better and that I dont need to hide and that its okay to stop protecting myself.
Interests
Getting healthy, helping people, coaching, softball, summer, friends
